my lifeas itis.
Monday, December 26, 2005
haha...
i was jus lookin thru all my blogs(which i don delete) and jus realised that this is the longest in running...
haha...its realli weird reading back and stuff...
and since i started this blog in jan, wad more to end the year writing in this blog...
i guess this blog will be back in service soon...hahas...
a lil editing here and there, it shld be all nice here again...
i'm jus looking to belong...
i always see myself
NEEDING to fit in...
dats terrible aint it...
for all i know,
youth@BC will soon be out of my lyfe...
i jus don feel dat i can afford to stay much longer...
if i'm gonna carry on hurting ppl, i shld not be selfish...
so...yep...
of all ppl, i think mich still knows i'm a kid...
lol...abit sad rite...
abit too old to be a kid...
hahas...
who ask mi to have a sad lyfe lar...
wan be kid also kena from the 3 of u girls...
lol...
still the same.|
12:24 AM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
hmms
i've realised dat life is all bout lettin go...
funny eh?
i've also been pretty envious bout all the ppl around mi i guess...
all their smiles and laughter dat i do not have
i jus got jealous...
was it fair?
hmms...i guess i didnt think it was fair to me...
why ppl can be happi and i dun deserved to be?
is life wad God wants u to see it as or is how u perceive of it no matter wad God says?
its true, dat i find hard to let go of wad i should...
i dunno...i feel as though i see life differently now...
so wads this all suppose to mean?
hmms...i shall try to change...
for a purpose i need to change...
and hope i'll get thru it...
=)
still the same.|
2:02 PM
Friday, May 27, 2005
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistakedat song was taken from the song "incomplete"..
hmms..today dee sent it to me...
which means i'm in sch!
ahahaha...
anyways, i think the lyrics struck mi ba...
it goes out to a fren actually...hmms...
I've tried...You wanted me back and here I am...
I guess i got it all wrong...
but i guess its all my fault to begin with...
I jus hope dat there wont be any regrets...Father Lord, I pray for my friend to be strong oh Lord
even during this time of exams,
I pray dat u'll grant her strength to carry on studying
and I pray dat she'll get good grades to glorify ure name oh Lord...
I pray dat even as she might be doing her paper today,
I pray dat u'll help her rmb all dat she've studied...
I pray dat she'll be able to do her best and also give her more rest after she's done and she'll get her voice back soon...
Lord, i also pray for myself to be strong during this time...
let mi be more mature in my thots
grant me peace...
i know things wont go my way but i ask for ure plans to be revealed to me...
I pray dat all this can be done, in Jesus name i pray
Amen.sighz...
still the same.|
10:21 AM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
*sniffs sniffs*
hmms...feelin realli sickz...
yst in class nv do anything much...sorrie to my grp!!
hmms...yea...its true dat i've not been performing...
i guess its high time i should...
shall try my best!!
yst met up with jon, justine and shann to go eat at millena walk..
dunno spell correctly not..haha..i dint even know how to get dere la!
very very tired...
slept for like 6 hrs in 2 days...and i feel like sleein more...=x
reached home at bout 10+...
realli couldnt take it so i took a cab...
reached home with a headache....
den realised dat i actually had fever la...38 deg..sighs...
lucky i'm feelin much better today..but i still feel like throwin' up.. =x
anyways, its been confirmed! june 19-24 goin to thailand! yay...haha...but cant be so happi yet...i havent asked my parents and i also need pastor's consent...scared it'll be a big hurdle...but mus go trainin and all dat..so feelin quite excited actually...
i think i needa rest...sigs...realli dun like to feel this way...later!
still the same.|
11:46 AM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
heys
hmms...yst i went for gen12:2 wave 2...was my first time going...cool la...hahas...can reach out to so many other ppl in other parts of the world...
btw,
i'm signin on for a mission trip
and its gonna be on 19-24 of june...
hmms..realli hope i can go la...
its nice to leave singapore...
i wanna get away...
it'll be good to get away from my parents and all...
and jus devote myself to servin God...
i dunno why...
dun feel like sayin so much this time...
hmms...
i'm jus gonna do my best to focus on bowling and on God...
cos i'm so tired...sighs...
still the same.|
8:18 AM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
hiyee!
hmms...i've realised dat i havent been updatin for quite a while
i guess i've been too busy...
sorrie guys if i nv kip in contact wif u all...esp ppl from church! sorrie!!
first and foremost, i wanna thank the crusaders in sch!!
it has been a pretty rough week for mi...and they've always been dere for mi...
DESPITE my mood swings...
hahas...i think that will be the worst of me u'll ever see...
To Ash, Di, Nawa and Sandy, thanks for all ure time for me in class...
and sorrie for lettin it all out on u guys...
anyways, i jus wanna let u all know dat i love u guys so muchie!
if not for all of u, i realli dunno wadz will happen to me...
so i sincerely wanna thank all of u guys... >.<
i think dat from mon - thurs, life's been terrible la...
ppl seein the super sensitive and emotional side of me...
but thank God for blessing me yesterday...
i finally got into RP bowling team and i'm gonna make sure i stay in there!!
haha...yst training was super great lah...i'm still not dat used to the drills though...
but i did well for my games...heehee...becos i finally knew how to aim! >.<
i think dats the most embarassin part...dat i didnt know how to aim even after bowling for so long already...LOL!
so we actually had one game for drills, den we played 3 games...
heehee...my score was 148, 145 den 226...wah...not bad eh...heehee
but i still wanna work on it...i wont let my national dreams slip away without a fight...i'm gonna train and train...
Den God also blessed mi yst when my mum received a starhub letter and she got a hundred dollars voucher...den i can finally change fone liaos!! yay..after a long year wif my this fone, i also think its time to change... =p
One last thing, irene yst came and spoke to mi online, and there MIGHT be a slight chance of going for a mission trip...i know chances are not high...but i realli realli wanna go...so...i'm realli prayin now...and i hope dat God will answer my prayers...hmms....okie...with all dat said, i think i gotta go liaos...lols...mus rush to church to practise for tmr...and i havent bathe! oh no! lols...okok...i think wan ting influence mi alot...i feel like i talk abit like her...and joulbert also!! u 2 are baddies! wahahahahaha...okies..craps lata...tata~
still the same.|
10:45 AM
Monday, May 16, 2005
yossss~~
can u believe it?!
i'm actually in mac now...den joulbert, ting2 and simon all studyin other den mi
i super slack sia...
hmms...smthing's definitely wrong with mi today...i cant stop laughin...
it was great la...
its been ages since i realli laughed till this crazy...
and i practically laugh over everything...
and i cant stop... =x
initially today was in a bad mood...thanks ash..for tryin to listen to me...
but after dat things got quite okie...
esp aft the "xxx" talk by eugene...
and of cos, some silly comments by sherlyn... =p
hmms....sandy accompanied her today...
so nice of her to crap online with mi...
i practically wasnt payin attentition to the fac lo...
confirm get low grades liaos...
aft sch talked to the fac...
figured dat it would be better for him and the class...
i wouldn't wan to go thru dat much torture all the time...
i wanna aim for good grades...
scully i can do even better den joulbert!!
wahahahahs....
hmms...today i prayed...realli..its like the first time i realli did so in a week...
was nice la...at least i'm happier now...lols...
i'm boooooooooooooooooooooored...
lols...tmr enterprise le..and to think last week i got a C...
sighs...hmms..nvm...i shall try to do my best...
hope my 3 darling seniors here will jiayou in their studies...
tmr their UT and i was like playing gunbound infront of dem...
evil baddie me...lols...
i lurveee my classy...lols...
though we aint dat tight yet...
ironic eh?
lols...but they're nice peeps...
i'm sure...jus like mi..
muahahahahaha...
there i go, being nuts again... =p
anyways, go do RJ liaos...
still the same.|
8:07 PM