i may not be the best. i may be misunderstood. i know i cannot be that someone you expected me to be. but i am still me. still that same out-of-tuned key.

i'll keepon playing.




Joel.
20o10o88
studyin at Republic Poly
>.lost in lyfe.

my lifeas itis.

Monday, May 09, 2005

there're jus so many of these thots in my mind...wad is right and wad is wrong...sometimes, life realli feels like a burden, with so many responsibilities to bear...i know and God is there for mi and all but sometimes, all i wan is jux some reassurance from ppl dat i can lean on physically...i think perhaps a shoulder is wad i realli need...

yst i sang at youth...it was so great lo..God was definitely there...but...sigh...it was mother's day lo...i dunno wads gotten into me...is it wrong of me not to try and save her? perhaps its the evil side of mi ba...i dun consider myself having parents...i jus treat them as non-existent ba...

life is unfair unfair unfair!!! wad on earth did i do to deserve all these...i did nth...i realli did nth...all my life, i've not even gone for detention classes before...so why? its not bout forgiving and forgettin...but...sigh...i dunno la...i'm not as strong as i look...ppl who know me well knows dat i'm one of the most sensitive guy on earth...

i think i need help...i definitely do...i know dat i cant get thru this period of time alone...sighs...i leave it to God's hands ba...


i'm hidin in a box, lookin thru dat small little hole
i got out of the box, but afraid of how the world would percieve of me
i hid back into the box, lookin thru dat little hole once again
i drown myelf to slp with my tears, wake up with the lingering ache
i know i'm not suppose to be alone, but who am i suppose to follow...

still the same.| 1:42 PM

tryto understand me.

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key of C. o

try as i may.
i can never explain.

key of D. o

i cant' be somebody.
i'm really not.

key of E. o

i know there's.
some time to change.

key of F. o

everything's changing.
yet i don't feel.
the same.

key of G. o

always caught.
up in circles.
confusion is.
nothing new.

key of A. o

i never believed.
in dreaming.
it never.
got me very far.

key of B. o

i tried.
to find myself.
i always.
get lost.

key of higher C. o

no one see.
me rightly.
i'm always.
a fault.

key of higher D. o

i tried to fly.
away from reality.
but gravity.
pulled me back.

key of higher E. o

still i'll keep on playing.
that same out-of-tune key.
that everybody thought of me.